W hat the fuck is wrong with me? I risked my life since I was 5, growing up surviving train accidents, gunshots, Police, angry K9 units, fight nights, pop offs and then now I need to commit my life to being with you and declare my love infront of your folks and take it to church but i'm getting in my own way, WTF? I think I know what I need to do! Logic says getting married is a one sided deal and I should not get into it but being logical doesn't seem to leave any room for happiness. W hat the fuck? how can I be ready to risk my life for everything else and then turn out to be too scared to grow old with you? given, you will drive me crazy for the rest of my life but I will never be happy without you, i've known that since I first saw you and I'm still saying it "I saw you first and I just knew :) it was you I've never hated anybody, the way that I hate you but I've never hated anybody before and if I hate you why do I pray for you when I go to sleep, w