Yoh, I wanna tell you the whole story but it's not mine alone, I've never thought someone would ever try to kill themselves because of me and I never knew how bad I hurt her because I blocked her from my fb, whatsapp and even my phone, clearly I loved her and I thought if I didn't have to hear from her I wouldn't have to remember how much, a few months later she tried to contact me to say, dude "we need to talk" she didn't know I had blocked her so she assumed I read the msg and chose to ignore her, a year later (November 2015) I had my sim in my iphone and I took that chance to free my inbox because I don't read mail (on my tablet) and I cleared my inbox but I had one unread msg and I couldn't find it, I don't remember how I done it really but I went into a section were I could read mail from blocked uses and it said "we need to talk" and it's long overdued so I replied and when I woke up she replied too so I got her number we talked and I came face to face with what I did... yoh...yer she had fallen pregnant and I was the father but she couldn't reach me and she had to tell her mom and wasn't gonna be there for that as well and ultimately she had to make choices without me, when I heard what she went through with head doctors and secrets, I just couldn't handle the news I felt like I was gonna burst, I wanted to pull my hair, tear my skin, I had to do Everyday Life to relieve some pressure and as we were chatting, I found myself in town hoping to see her, I didn't even know if she still lived there, I didn't really know where there was and as I was about to give up she came walking along with shades and ear-phones, she didn't see my msgs, she had no idea I was coming and it turned into a date, we had pizza and I forgot why I broke up with her at first, great highlights came rushing back, I remembered how much I loved her smile, her voice and her style, we were Walking down her street with ice-cream and chatting about how things could have turned out and she was smilling and we were happy again, and i'm growing and learning to be careful of hurting others because walking away is never enough, we are responsible for everone in and out of our lives, you don't get to forget until it's really done
____disclaimer____ with love and no dis-respect uyandazi.
For You (I guess it was real love)
©2016 African House Movement
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